Months 4 – 7, Naomi’s Growing Up

Somebody should have told me that trying to keep up with all of Naomi’s first time experiences and writing about them was going to be a full time job!  I blame some of you for this post being nearly 4 months late! Ya’ll should have said something, you know that I’m a rookie at this! Lol.

I mean, the first 3 months were pretty easy to manage and keep up with.  There was a pretty nice leap in development every 3 – 4 weeks which made keeping this blog up to date pretty simple.  But, then month 4 happened!  And I don’t know what was in that bottle she was drinking, but this chick started blowing my mind on a regular basis and has not slowed down since then.

So, what I decided to do was to just capture everything on video and put together a movie for you to see what all has been going on in her world for the past several months.  At this rate, it may actually be easier for me to do something like this quarterly, cause trying to keep up with the new things she is doing EVERY SINGLE DAY is freakin’ exhausting!  But it is exhausting in the most incredible way imaginable.

She has brought a simple joy to living that I didn’t even know I was missing from my life. I mean, I literally sat and watched her play with an empty plastic cup for like 20 minutes.  She was just laughing and slamming it on the floor, and on the couch, and on the dog (sorry, Jazz) like it was the most incredible thing she had ever seen.  To see her having the time of her life with something that I literally take for granted and drink from; it made me take inventory of my life and forced me to again slow down and start being intentional about appreciating every aspect of life.

I’ve found that her laugh captivates me in a way that is hard to express, but it’s like when she laughs, there is a purity to it.  There is no pretense, no trying to fit in, no trying to make me feel good, no thought about what people may think, & definitely no thought given about where she may be at the time, or who she may be disturbing.  If it’s funny to her, you’re going to know…and it honestly reminds me so much of my mother that there are times when the sound of her laugh nearly makes me emotional.

God, do I miss my mother’s laugh…But, I’m so thankful, because for whatever reason, He saw fit to bless me with Bobby #2 and gave me a daughter who’s loudest laughing fits always happen in church!  And anyone who knew my momma knew that was the one place where she always laughed the hardest.  So, during those times when my daughter sees something funny to her & is cackling away like a little maniac in the middle of Bishop Harvey’s sermon, I just shake my head, look up at the ceiling, & imagine my Mom & Jesus sitting somewhere together laughing at me.  I can just see it being hilarious to them that I am the only person in my entire church who constantly has to remove my daughter from service because she is literally laughing to loud!

Over the past 3 months she has become my laughing partner.  I’ve found that her eyesight has grown much sharper, so now I can make faces at her from across the room and she’ll give me that goofy open mouth smile that I love.  Or, I’ll walk through the door and the minute I come around the corner, she’ll just start laughing cause she knows the human jungle gym has finally arrived!  This journey with her has even opened another door to my relationship with God as I have to imagine that this is also how He feels about us as His children.  This is also why I chose the song I did for the video; as I have a complete understanding that every moment of every day is precious & not to be wasted.  With that understanding comes the realization that I truly don’t want to miss a thing.  I want to soak in every moment and continue to let those moments leave their mark on me.

As I look back over my life, I know for a fact that God has blessed me beyond measure.  He has done more for me in the last 3 years of my life than I thought I would achieve in the next 20.  After seeing the doors He has opened, there is no person on this earth who could ever convince me that God doesn’t exist & that He doesn’t care about the specific details of my everyday life.  He has truly been a friend who sticks closer than a brother…He never left me or given up on me, even when I gave Him every reason to do just that.  And every time I look at my daughter, I see the fruit of an incredible promise made 15 years ago by a faithful God to a young man who swore he was never having children.  Who would’ve thought that being wrong about something would become one of the best things to ever happen to me?

With that being said, Naomi, I want you to always know that you have greatness in you!  Know that you will change lives!  Know that you will have an amazing impact on this world.  But, most of all, know that you were promised to me, and Daddy promises to do everything in his power to return the joy that you continually bring to my life with each passing day!

 

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Month 3 – Naomi’s First Road Trip

Well, we hit another milestone this past week.  Naomi went on her first road trip out to beautiful Apple Valley, Minnesota for a leadership conference at River Valley Church. She actually did pretty well on the way there and only exploded 2 diapers on the 5 hour trip…which was about 3 less diapers than what I was expecting. However, she did completely make up for it by throwing up on me twice while we were there, though! Lol

In spite of the puke-fest, the conference was absolutely amazing, the Grandstay Hotel was great, & as always Naomi was the center of attention everywhere she went…at least while she was awake, as the girl proved several times over that she can literally sleep through anything. (#winning!)

Can’t wait for the next one!

Naomi’s First Swim

Happy to say that Naomi survived her first time in water outside of the bathroom sink! Lol.  I think she did pretty well up until Sonia tried to take her all the way under…then her black side kicked in!  For a good laugh, check out her reaction in the attached video.

What Kind of Father Will You Be?

Well, after all of these years, and after all of the conversations I’ve had with myself in which I tried to justify the things that I have seen & the stories that I have read, it finally happened.  Honestly, I figured it was only a matter of time, but I never thought it would hit me as strongly as it did. See, everything changed for me a couple of nights ago when I was holding Naomi and having our nightly conversation about how she needs to learn to say “Daddy” as her first word.

For whatever reason, she finds this conversation highly entertaining.  It always begins with her watching me slowly sound out the two syllables that I know are going have me doing a full lap around the outside of the house whenever they exit her lips for the first time.  After listening to me for a few seconds, she’s at a place now where you can actually see her trying to say something back.  She stretches her neck forward, purses her lips, opens her mouth and releases some crazy baby-babble that never sounds anything like what I just pronounced.  Then she just starts laughing like this is some kind of game to her, smh.  Now, this foolishness can literally go on for up to 30 minutes at a time as her Daddy is pretty persistent when he gets an idea in his head…but, unfortunately for me, she takes after her father and is just a persistent in her enjoyment of tricking me to believe she’s going to give me what I’m begging for! Lol.

Anyway, it was during one of these conversations that she took a breath and released some extended stream of utter nonsense that left her completely breathless & left me in tears from laughing so hard.  To make it even funnier, apparently, the look on my face while I was laughing was just as hilarious to her and she started laughing as well. Laughing

It was in that very moment that it happened.  Maybe it was the way her smile touched every part of her face, or how her laugh momentarily shook her entire body, or possibly it was just the simple fact that we both found each other completely hilarious at the exact same time.  But, in that moment I saw a very real piece of myself being reflected back at me… through her.  And in my mind I heard the Bible verse in Genesis in which God says, “Let us make man in our image, in our likeness.”Face to Face

With this experience, I completely went to another level in my respect for who God is as a heavenly Father, and along with that, gained an entirely new understanding on why He cannot stop Himself from chasing after our hearts the way that He does.

However, it was also at that exact same time that I lost all respect for any man who can look into a face that he helped create and not be willing to dedicate his entire life to being an active participant in that child’s existence.  I will repeat that in a slightly different way:  If you are a father, and you are not doing everything within your power to make sure that your child has everything he/she needs to be successful in life (which includes you), all of my respect for you as a person…poof…gone.

Now, I want to put a disclaimer here as there are some bogus women in the world who think that keeping a child from his/her father is the best way to get back at him for whatever happened between the two of them.  If this is you, then you can kick rocks, too, because you are just as guilty.  And if you are the father who is wrongfully being kept from your child, then I pray that God intervenes and provides a space for the reconciliation that would be needed for you to begin seeing your child.  I say this because every child needs both of their parents…even if those two parents feel they don’t need each other.

“Every child needs both of their parents…
even if those two parents feel they don’t need each other.”

I look around and see so many incredible women raising children on their own, and I want you to know that you have my utmost respect.  You are to be commended and celebrated for the things that you sacrifice daily, and for the difficulty you face that most people will never fully understand.  I say this because I was in a conversation with my sister, Tookie, and she began educating me on just how difficult things are when there is only one parent in the house.

She talked about things like having to leave my nephew RJ in his car-seat on the floor in the bathroom while she took Tookie & Naomishowers, and about how there was no such things as just running into a store when she just needed a couple of items.  She expressed the frustration she faced of having to work a 3rd shift full-time job while also trying to be the mother that he needed during the day. She explained how difficult it was for her knowing that she had to find somewhere for him to stay each night that she had to go to work.  About how there is no real down time as there is always another need, another bill, another appointment, another task to get done.  She even talked about how that stress can build and begin affecting a mother’s patience, and impair her ability to maintain relationships with friends & family as she constantly tries to balance her responsibilities as a parent against her own personal need for space & time to just be.

Anyone who knows me, knows how much I love my sister…and while listening, my heart broke for her.  I realized just how blessed Sonia & I are to have each other, and just how blessed Naomi is to have both of us helping each other take care of her.   Now, I can’t sit here and act as if I’m the perfect husband, because I know that I’m not, and I’m sure Sonia could give you a list of things that she would love to see me do more of…but, in spite of any short-comings I may have, I can honestly say that I’m right here in the fight with her.

When she needs to take a shower, she can, because I’m here.  When she needs to run to the store for a couple of items, she can, because I’m here.  When she wants to stay in the bed for an extra hour, or catch a quick nap because she is simply tired, she can, because I’m here.  When something needs to be fixed in the house, I take care of it, because I’m here.  When her car needs gas, or when something on it breaks down, I take care of it, because I’m here.  When the grass needs mowing, I take care of it, because I’m here. When groceries need to be brought in the house, I take care of it, because I’m here. When dog poop needs to be picked up in the yard, I take care of it, because I’m here.

So, when Sonia or Naomi need someone to laugh, or vent with, I can be that person, because I’m here. When stress builds and either of them need a shoulder to cry on, I can be that person, because I’m here. And when either one of them need someone to eliminate drama, set clear boundaries around them, & bring instant consequences to anyone who crosses those lines, I have been & will continue to be that person, because as long as I’m breathing I will be here.Sonia & Naomi

This is my promise, as I have decided that this is the kind of father I will be.  My daughter will know my voice.  She will recognize my laugh from across the room.  I will be the first person who takes her out on a date and the first man to express to her how beautiful she is & tell her that I love her.  I will do everything in my power to make her feel special & understand the anointing that she has on her life.  I will encourage her to chase her dreams, and will move heaven and earth to eliminate any obstacles that would stand in her way.  I will be her #1 cheerleader and her fiercest defender at the same time.

And when the day comes that I take my last breath, I will not leave her with the responsibility of taking on a new debt for my burial, but instead will leave her with an inheritance that will allow her to continue living even better than before.  As even in my death, I will provide one last gift that will remind her, “Daddy was thinking about you.”

I pray that this blog touches you, and if you’re already a great parent, then I want to encourage you to continue being that.  But, if you are a father (or mother) who knows that you haven’t been leaving it all on the field, then I am pleading that you make a change today.  The reality is that every kid wants to have a relationship with their dad, and it is never too late to decide what kind of father you want to be for your child.   So, look into that reflection of yourself in his/her eyes and promise to be an incredible one starting right now.Reflection

 

 

 

 

Naomi’s 2 Month Old Photo Shoot

Two months in and Naomi celebrated her first Easter & met her great-grandfather.  She’s growing so fast & is seemingly showing us something new everyday.  Looking forward to seeing what month 3 brings!

Naomi’s One Month Old Photo Shoot

Truly happy to celebrate Naomi’s first month out! Lol.  Looking forward to the many more random photoshoots to come!  Daddy loves you, Princess Naomi Anaya!

Naomi’s First Month

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Well, Naomi has survived her first month as a part of the English Tribe, and I have to say that outside of a few minor incidents (like the one pictured above where Naomi found out that elastic head-bands are not your friend when you pull on them and suddenly let go! lol) it hasn’t been anywhere near as bad as I thought it would be.

To be honest, that is partially my fault, as I had allowed people to scare me half to death with their horror stories of what their first few weeks were like when they had their first child.  So, I had prepared myself to become part of the Walking-Dead-Daddy’s Club due to an extreme lack of sleep & and the random screaming of a new born who only has one way to communicate.  However, being able to tag-team with Sonia and get Naomi on a schedule of feeding, then napping, has allowed us to take care of her needs while still getting the rest that we truly believed we would have to go without.

Now, I have to add a disclaimer here, as I know that our situation is not like the one a lot of other people have had to raise children in.  About 3 and a half years ago we had a conversation about wanting to start a family and we put a plan together on the things that we wanted to do & pay off prior to having a child.  Over the next few years, sticking to that plan allowed us to free up our finances by paying off all of our debt.  It wasn’t easy, but I thank God for being able to testify that we participated in a credit repair program that helped significantly raise our scores, we successfully eliminated all our credit card debt, we currently own all 3 of our vehicles outright with no monthly payments, and the only bills we have are rent, utilities, and whatever other bills we decide to make on our own.

In addition to the financial strategy we put in place, which included many nights of rice & beans being our favorite meal, we also spent time traveling to places that we had always wanted to see in person.  12651258_10156502147740611_2840667663898502695_nTrips to the Bahamas, the Caribbean, Puerto Rico, Las Vegas, Los Angeles, & a few other places allowed us an opportunity to not just experience some amazing food & sights, but to also get away from the hustle of daily life and help cement our relationship with each other first and foremost.

During those years we learned the best ways to communicate with each other, and how to manage our emotions when conflict came up in our relationship.  We learned how to love our extended family, but also how to set boundaries for their involvement in our lives.  We learned how to say “NO” to church folks! (I’ve received my honorary PhD in Random Request Rejection, lol)  Now, don’t get me wrong, I love my church family, but I Timothy 3:4-5 tells me that my first responsibility is at home.  So, I understand that allowing my duties at church to come before the solidarity of my house is completely against God’s will for my life.  As a pastor, living life this way has made peace much easier to come by between my wife and myself when dealing with outside influences.

Probably most importantly, we learned how to manage our finances and to have real discussions about who is spending what, and when that spending should (or should not) happen.  Whether you realize it, or not, money/finances is consistently listed as one of the leading causes of stress in most relationship surveys.  So, our ability to work together with joint accounts & limit opportunities for the dollar bill to be a stressor has paid great dividends for us in our marriage.

Now, I can hear you thinking, “I thought this blog was supposed to be about Naomi’s first month!”  And I want you to know that it really is.  It is because of the decisions that we started making 3 years ago that the first month with her has been everything we dreamed of.

With God’s blessings & our finances under control, Sonia has been able to be the stay at home mom that she always desired to be.  In addition to that, I was able to spend the first 3 weeks of Naomi’s life at home as well, which has been an amazing experience for me personally.  And even though I have returned to work, I have the flexibility which allows me to be completely present in her life, which has always been a secret desire of my heart.

16804093_10211019646060783_7205974978556737822_oWith our time free, we have been able to tag-team-love her around the clock, with us taking shifts based on the needs of the other person.  We have taken literally hundreds of photos, and hopefully have Naomi thinking that smiling and laughing is supposed to be a permanent part of life; as that’s about all she’s seen her parents doing for a solid month now.

In a nutshell, this first month has been completely amazing!  I wouldn’t trade this time for anything in the world, and openly admit that I have been VERY selfish with it.  I am not ashamed to say that my priorities have completely shifted, and if it’s not good for Sonia & Naomi, then it’s not good for me. Honestly, at this point, I couldn’t see it being any other way;  I mean, we literally made a person!  I’m sorry, but that is still incredible to me. And sometimes, I just sit and stare at her, thinking of the wonder of creation.  Thinking about how amazing God is to allow us to be like Him, and create another person in our own image!  How can anyone deny that He exists when looking into the face of a child that has features of your own?My sister likes to mess with us and say that she is going to be completely spoiled.  You know what?  She’s absolutely right!  If hugging, kissing, holding, & giving her all the affection she deserves around the clock is spoiling…then we plan to spoil the fear of love & commitment out of her!  

If encouraging her, disciplining her, protecting her, & doing everything in our power to provide her with every opportunity to succeed is spoiling…then she is going to be an incredibly successful spoiled mess.

And if spoiling is me modeling the behavior to her mother that I hope Naomi grows to one day expect when her turn comes to find a spouse…then I pray that God helps me to spoil her rotten and accept nothing less than the best that He has for her.  I say this because there is one thing that I am absolutely positive of:  The normal we create for her now will become the normal she will subconsciously search to re-enact for the rest of her life.  

So, my prayer is that God continues to make me into the father she needs so she can become the woman He created her to be.

Happy 1st Month Naomi!Naomi 1 Month

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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